Just Remember...

When my mom was diagnosed with cancer, I was devastated.  The news came not like a bomb dropped on me but my mind became darkened.  All I could think of was death.  I asked myself is this the end? I'm not ready to lose my mom.  Tears wouldn't stop falling that night.  As I laid down on my bed that night after I said my prayers, the Plan of Salvation came to my mind.  Instead asking whether it's true like in the movie Charlie,  I thought about the great plan of happiness that Heavenly Father made for us, that families are forever, and I thought about enduring mortality and living the way I ought to so that I can be with my family forever.  Somehow those thoughts comforted me.  My mind was no longer darkened, and the next day I felt at peace.  I went back to the hospital with a determination that we're going to fight this to the end.  That we're going to do our best to prolong mom's life with the help of cancer treatments and our support for her.

As the financial strain slowly taking a toll on our lives especially to mom, I was worried again and feeling frustrated.  I don't know how we're going to do this.  Then I thought about the Atonement of Jesus Christ.  I remembered a scripture verse found in the Book of Mormon that Jesus Christ not only suffered for the sins of the people so that He could save from our sin, but He also suffered for the pains and sicknesses of this people.  Meaning, He also suffered for mom's sake so that He'll know how to succor her.  I'm sure He knows our suffering and what we're going through.  I don't know how the Atonement is going to work for sick people like mom, but I do believe in miracles.  I don't know if He'll take away the impurities in her body but I know that He has the power to do that but it's in His will. Just the thought of Him suffering for all the pains and sufferings and problems and sorrow is a comfort to me.  I felt comforted that we can do this.  That Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ are there for us.  That they know how much we needed them right now and I know that they're going to help us.  They're going to provide a way for us to endure this.

So it's important that we remember.  Remember what we have learned at church.  Remember His gospel.  And remember our faith.  Remember also that satan is not only pushing hard to tempt us but he'll also use our emotions to pull us down.  He's going to make us feel sadder, more sorrowful, more depressed in the hope that all those negative feelings will weaken our faith and make us miserable.  So remember the gospel.  Remember that nothing is impossible with faith.  Remember to have faith in the Lord's timetable. Remember that we have a loving Father in Heaven who cares and loves us so much that He wants to pass the test of mortality so that we can go back to His presence someday.

We're only at the first stage of mom's long treatment but just remembering what I have learned about the gospel gives me the strength to endure and to never give up because I know that an all-powerful, all-loving Heavenly Father will always be there for me and for my family.